when you found me, and there was no one else around me;

[rocknload]

Oh, God, five hours of looking up potential jobs, and ... I-I quit. No wonder almost everyone I know is either joining the military or planning on staying in college for the next eight years or whatever. Christ.

I'll look for maybe one more hour—maybe at flight attendant information—and then I quit. I'm done. I'm going to go play some video games, walk outside. Go get some pizza. Play the piano, write some fluffy fanfiction. Something.

Alternately, I could kill myself.

Comments

[sunsetsred.livejournal.com]

Those are a lot of great options. And yet I usually end up just sitting on my ass doing nothing. I hope your day is more productive than mine!

[rocknload.livejournal.com]

Ah, but I may choose option f) kill myself. I'm so fucking sick of looking through Google search results and the like, it's looking more and more appealing.

[sunsetsred.livejournal.com]

The only problem with that one is you cant play video games when you're done.

[rocknload.livejournal.com]

I can't eat pizza, either, but it'd save me a whole lot of trouble.

[sunsetsred.livejournal.com]

What about just not working and being homeless? The possibilities with that one are endless! I'm sure you could bum both pizza and video games on a semi-regular basis.

[rocknload.livejournal.com]

An option I have considered! And I can live pretty easily without video games, though giving up my DS would hurt. I doubt I could live without pizza, though; perhaps people will give it to me for free! Sympathetic delivery drivers, maybe.

[theeternalmind.livejournal.com]

Hmmm, maybe we can do a double suicide. I avoid even looking at potential jobs because it gets me so wildly depressed. And I actually graduated!

[rocknload.livejournal.com]

What method do you prefer~?

[theeternalmind.livejournal.com]

Something relatively painless? I have realized that it's actually quite difficult to kill yourself for certain if you try to make it painless, though--and even if you DON'T make it painless, because for all its squishiness, the human body can sometimes be shockingly resilient. Overdosing on sleeping pills just makes you sleep for a really long time, and it also gives people who find you the opportunity to rush you to the hospital, which really only makes your life MORE miserable because then you're saddled with bills you can't pay and mandatory psych visits you don't want. So I've thought it might be a good idea to combine methods, e.g. taking sleeping pills, and when you're about to nod off, tie a plastic bag around your head. You suffocate to death and you don't even realize it.

[theeternalmind.livejournal.com]

It occurs to me that I may have freaked you out. Did I freak you out?

[rocknload.livejournal.com]

No. I'm considering the logistics of beating myself to death with my computer.

[theeternalmind.livejournal.com]

It seems to me that if you're going to do something that violent, it would be easier to pitch yourself and your computer together off the roof of some relatively tall building. In any case, beating yourself with your computer probably wouldn't work, because if you didn't get a fatal blow right away, you'd just knock yourself out. On the other hand, the insides of a monitor are highly toxic, but I'm not sure if it's "kill you instantly" toxic or not.

[rocknload.livejournal.com]

It would be an ironic death, considering my mood. Also, there's not a single building in Flagstaff more than seven stories tall, and that building isn't legally allowed to be that high. I guess they can't do anything about it, now.

[theeternalmind.livejournal.com]

Seven stories is still plenty tall to inflict a fatal injury upon yourself. If you want to be absolutely certain, try landing head-first.

[rocknload.livejournal.com]

It's not high enough to guarantee it, though! I'd probably jump off a bridge or a cliff, those, we've got a lot of. Sedona does, anyway.

[immelmanturn.livejournal.com]

Come to A-kon. We'll help you die of embarrassment.

[theeternalmind.livejournal.com]

Oooh, I'll (probably) be going to A-Kon. :O I second this, Bri, if only so I can harass you one of those days.

[immelmanturn.livejournal.com]

Awesome it's a party! We're trying to make her break out the DMC cosplay.

[rocknload.livejournal.com]

Really? I'm, like eighty percent sure I'll be there!

[theeternalmind.livejournal.com]

Awesome! I don't know if I'll be able to afford going, but even if I can't, I'll probably get a friend to drive me over to at least hang out, since it's roughly 30-40 minutes away from where I live.

[unicorn]

The thought of staying in college for eight years is making me want to kill myself too, especially since today is schedule-determining day. We could have a suicide party.

[rocknload.livejournal.com]

I thought you were banninated and stuff! HOW ARE YOU HERE.

Suicide party means we'd have to plan some kind of group death.

[unicorn]

LOREE COMPUTER LABS!

That's what I'm saying! There are a couple of people commenting that look like they'd be interested.

[theeternalmind.livejournal.com]

We could totally make it into a suicide cult. MASS POISONINGS ALL AROUND.

[unicorn]

Hemlock? It's so ancient Greece.

[rocknload.livejournal.com]

I was thinking Kool-Aid...

[unicorn]

Now I have an image of the Kool-Aid guy jumping in through the wall and bashing your head in.

QUESTION: Do you think things like the Kool-Aid guy and Pedobear and all those weird freaky things that get stuck in the collective social subconscious could become prevalent enough to be monsters of the week on Supernatural?

[rocknload.livejournal.com]

Yes, I do, and that'd be awesome! Well, not Pedobear, but the Kool-Aid guy, sure! Unfortunately, copyright and stuff...

[unicorn]

We'll hold that lost episode in our souls.

[theeternalmind.livejournal.com]

Hey, don't knock the classics.

[goyutasama.livejournal.com]

YOU ALWAYS COULD BECOME ONE OF US.

[rocknload.livejournal.com]

YOU MAKE IT SOUND LIKE A GODDAMN CULT.

[goyutasama.livejournal.com]

BECOME ONE OF US, AND ALL YOUR DREAMS WILL COME TRUE.

[rocknload.livejournal.com]

I AM AFRAID.

And you're gone, by now. >______>