i see faith in your eyes.

[rocknload]

Another person I'm related to has died. That's like the fourth death recent death, I think, but I'm honestly starting to lose track. My extended family is dropping like flies, that's the important thing, here. This guy, a cousin however many times removed, he killed himself, but that's not surprising. People on both sides of my family kill themselves all the damn time.

Dates for the funerals are starting to overlap; there are scheduling conflicts.

That's messed up.

I'm sick of the pain in my side stabbing me every time I take a breath, which is mostly bearable, unless I happen to yawn, and then it's not. It started last night, and I'm wondering if the anxiety-fest that's been my life since the beginning of December is starting to have physiological consequences. I want to write something, but I'm sick of realizing, again and again, how creative I'm not. I'm really tired.

I'm going back to bed.

Comments

[sunsetsred.livejournal.com]

I fucking swear, this is the year of deaths. My aunt, a coworker, and my cat all within a month. I am tired of things I love dying. I hope you're doing okay. ♥

[unicorn]

Dammit.

I felt bad for my roommate over this last year because she has a huge extended family that's still very close, and so SOMETHING was always happening to SOMEONE. I think she went to nine funerals in 08.

Sleep is good for you.

[raetehytan.livejournal.com]

Man, I'm sorry :C Funeral scheduling conflicts should never happen...

[ex-monarchy375.livejournal.com]

Dammit. :[

[theeternalmind.livejournal.com]

I suppose I should feel lucky that I have very little in the way of extended family, or at least extended family that I know anything or give two shits about; if there's been a death in the (birth) family since my grandfather died when I was in middle school, I don't know about it.

Maybe we could write something together again. I still remember the YGO!/Amber crossover fic we did. If only we'd had the slightest idea what the hell we were doing with it, it could've been pretty awesome.

I know this is sort of meaningless, but try to take care.

[scarbie.livejournal.com]

Oh man, I'm so sorry.