my friends are gonna be there too.

[rocknload]

So I feel into complete inconsolable despair on Sunday night and I woke up on Monday morning with a surprising sense of purpose. Previous insurmountable obstacles suddenly seemed conquerable! I could clearly discerne a sort of twisted path through everything before me, and while I wasn't and still am not super cheerful about most things, I have been steadily accomplishing things ever since. In the next few days, I'll have my study abroad application finished and sent in, I'll be registered for a full load of summer classes, and I'll have completed more exams and major assignments than I have fingers. I even redid my LJ layout and cleaned my apartment. Sort of. It is cleaner.

The downside is the fact that my sudden enthusiasm for life probably happened because suddenly my situation is so critical that I instinctively know I don't even have the time to fuck around with the sadness and moping.

Also I have developed this sort of reputation among those I go to school with. By which I mean they know my name and when they need some sort of linguistics related help they gravitate towards me, as if led there by magic. I don't know why. I haven't even taken that many linguistics classes!

I have no idea why I'm writing like this. ALL 'EM FANCY WORDS, I better beat them outta my vocab before I get myself back home and go back to smoking, drinking, and working for minimum wage. I want to fit in, and all.

Comments

[unicorn]

you have been talking to me too much

I am waiting for that sense of purpose with regards to responsibility to kick in, myself; I AM GLAD THAT IT HAPPENED FOR YOU IN TIME.

[rocknload.livejournal.com]

that is very possible and you will get me MADE FUN OF man. :/

IT STILL HAS TIME TO HAPPEN when does your semester end, anyway?

[unicorn]

that just ain't right

uhh FOUR WEEKS FROM NOW

everything is due in like two weeks

I am hoping it kicks in after this weekend at least

[rocknload.livejournal.com]

i'm totally feeling your sympathy here

MINE TOO though actually most of my classes wrap up way shorter than that, mostly because of how the chinese department does things. I AM BOTH EAGER AND APPREHENSIVE FOR THE END.

maybe you should like, focus on the horrible possibilities of the future! though i am not sure I'd recommend that, actually

[technobubblegum.livejournal.com]

You can do it \o/

... erm, the accomplishing stuff part, not the smoking and drinking and crappy job part.