i see you standing there you hands running through your hair;

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I'm getting so wrapped up in my problems that I'm paying less attention to other people, and that makes me feel like a horrible fucking person. Dude, scratch that, it does make me a horrible fucking person. Okay, maybe not that bad, but a self-absorbed whiny brat, anyway.

So, guys, what's up?

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It's because I'm so used to my own bullshit and am a walking contradiction. And me neither. I feel bad for making them worry. But once again I'm trying to remember they'd rather worry than be completely in the dark, only to find out the hard way something is wrong.

Hopefully this story won't be as predictable and will give me a break. But yeah, things have. Part of the reason is because I've accepted the fact I'm still angry about it, will be angry about it at random times, and for once I'll letting myself be completely justified in my irritation. Which probably sounds weird.

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My bullshit is... special. I know my friends are used to it and I know they'd be pissed if I lied about or even downplayed certain stuff--but it's still kind of hard to act like I know that, sometimes.

That makes sense to me, actually! You know you're going to be angry but since you've got every right to be, you're not going to fight it? You'll be zen and accept your anger? If that makes sense?

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This is why they're friends. 8Db And yeah, it is hard. Sometimes it's a constant battle.

Yes! ... and hahaha it just backfired in my face NOT TWO MINUTES AGO. I give up right now. Jesus christ.

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Gaaaah, issues and the ... issues they cause.

DDDDDDDDDX What happened?

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Never online date. Never. It is not fuckin' worth it.

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Ah, I see. Is this some kinda breakup?

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lol I... man, I can't explain it in a few sentences. It's that messed up.

But yeah, you can say that. And you could say my patience is finally biting me in the ass.

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Noooooooooo.

Tell all parties involved to fuck off, maybe? It might not help, but you could feel better?

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I kinda did. Basically, I need a hiatus from one person. Hopefully she gets the hint now.

Why. WHY. DX Now my appetite is shot.

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Well, if it was on par with "fuck off," it'd be hard to miss it!

DDDDDX Try to eat anyway?

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I got blunt and gave her one-worded answers. For me, that's screaming "You have inserted your foot into your mouth. Congrats!"

I'm trying. I love me some BLT sandwich and it'd be a shame to waste it.

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Does she know you well enough to catch it?

Maybe try drinking some soda or something? Sometimes that makes me feel a little hungry as long as I don't, like, fill up on it.

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Oh yeah. She'll leave me alone for a bit, until I cool down and email her... right now, it's not gonna be soon.

;; Too laaaaate. The bread is soggy and if there's one thing I can't eat, it's soggy bread. Stupid tomatoes.

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Well, that'll give you the distance you need, anyway.

NOOOOOOO. Huh. My normally solution to most good problems is to suggest the ORDERING OF PIZZA, but--you don't like pizza, do you?!

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Yes, my mood as already improved drastically.

D: I'm a cheap ass! Pizza costs more money than I'm willing to dish out... especially considering I just bought myself a new cellphone UM.

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Progress!

Possible food money, sacrificed in the name of communication! Is it a nice phone, at least?

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Oh, it's my baby. I love it to pieces. And it has a keyboard!