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Title: Flashback
Author: Brittany
Fandom: Star Trek (2009)
Words: ~2000
Summary: Jim has a lot less fun when he tries the Kobayashi Maru for the first time.
Author’s Notes: Pre-movie, with only a few spoilers, though they’re obviously gonna be there. Also, this is making me all nostalgic, because the first fanfiction I ever wrote almost ten years ago was a Star Trek: The Original Series fic.

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“Okay, let’s do this. Sulu, take us to warp … does it actually matter?” Jim drummed his fingers on the armrests of the coveted captain’s chair as he chatted casually with the helmsman. “It doesn’t, does it?” He looked towards the one-way glass that made up one of the walls, which is where their professors were watching the show.

Cadet Kirk—” The gravely voice of Captain Meyer came out over the intercom, temporarily halting the beeps and chimes of the mock up computers and displayed on the bridge. “—this is a simulation testing your command abilities, and you are to at least pretend to take it seriously.”

The computers start up again.

“Right,” Jim said. “Fine. Take us to warp … eight.”

“… Eight, sir?”

“What, too much?”

“Goddamnit, Jim!” Leonard McCoy snapped, finally. Not because he really knew how fast warp eight was, but because he was sick of watching his friend mouth off and screw around when everyone in the room was essentially a captive and unwilling audience—himself included. “Knock if off, and quit making up numbers. Please.

Jim leaned back in his seat, comfortably, and he glanced over at Leonard and grinned. But at least he shut up.

The new test was introduced at the Academy not six days ago, and Jim Kirk wasn’t the first person to take the Kobayashi Maru. He’d been disappointed, because that’s what he’d wanted, but it’d quickly come out that the other two students had failed, and failed badly. And so Jim had confidently announced that he’d definitely be the first to pass.

He’d picked his crew in less than a day—and practically at random, as far as Leonard could tell. Before he could protest, or maybe point out the fact that he was most definitely not a science officer, he’d found himself behind the computer next to Jim’s captain chair. “You know I can’t make heads or tails of these blasted readings,” he said.

Jim rolled his eyes. “Just play along, Bones.”

“Like you’re doing?”

“Sir,” the communications officer said, a notable lack of enthusiasm in her voice. There might have even have been a note of sarcasm. “A Federation ship is hailing us, from … Gamma Hydra, Section Ten…?”

“Let’s hear it, Uhura,” Jim said, and in the back of his mind Leonard was wondering how many points he’d be marked for flippancy and his general failure to observe protocol. It would probably be a lot. “Put it up on, you know…” He twirled his fingers in the air, like he couldn’t think of the word, which Leonard didn’t buy for a minute. “—the intercom.”

The woman didn’t even look up, but she moved to do it.

The scratchy voice filled the bridge: “—Imperative! This is the Kobayashi Maru, we have struck a gravitic mine, our hull is penetrated and we have sustained many casualties—” At that point, the message faded away into static and distortion.

Jim had the decency to look like a captain for almost a few seconds in a row before he said, “Come on, man, this is easy.”

“Jim,” Leonard said again, quietly, his tone both warning and weary. He knew he was nagging. It drove him crazy, but whenever he was around this kid he could feel himself changing, somehow turning into a pale imitation of his own mother. She’d been a dear sweet woman but Lord she’d never been able to let anything go.

“Let’s go pick them up,” Jim said, ignoring him. “Plot a course for—”

“For the Neutral Zone, sir?” the helmsman asked, hesitantly.

“Sure,” Jim said. “Why not? And put it onscreen, would you?”

The faintly glowing screen at the front of the bridge came to life, the image sharp and clear enough that it could’ve been a window—the blackness of space looked appropriately dark and lonely, white pricks of light were scattered across the picture. In the midst of it all, tilted at an odd, distressing angle, was a civilian class ship, and its designation was visible from here: Kobayashi Maru.

“Alright,” Jim said. “We look close enough. Beam them up.”

“It can’t be that easy,” Leonard said.

“Why not? I wouldn’t mind.”

“Captain! Look!”

The image on the screen wavered, and Leonard looked down at his control panel to see what was going wrong, not that he planned on understanding a thing it was telling him. But the gasp in the room quickly told him that the problem had nothing to do the simulation, and he looked up just in time to see three alien looking vessels appear out of thin air.

“Sir, it appears that three Klingdon Cruises have decloaked and—”

“Yeah, I see them, Sulu!” Jim sat straighter up in his chair and said, “Red alert! Shields up! All hands to battle stations, arm the photon torpedoes and distract them before they notice the civilian ship—”

“We’re under fire, sir!”

Explosions bloomed across the screen, and at the same moment the entire bridge shuddered, which Leonard thought was a clever touch. Clever enough that he stumbled and banged his head hard on an errant display monitor. “Oh, for the love of Pete!” he growled.

Jim pulled himself back into his seat, and across the room other cadets were getting to their feet. “Status report!” he shouted.

“We’ve taken extensive damage to decks eleven through twenty-six, Captain, and our shields are holding at twenty-six percent.”

“The civilian ship?”

“Unharmed. Captain,” the helmsman started. “This ship isn’t outfitted to take on three Klingon battle ships—”

“Do they make any other kind?” Leonard interjected, rubbing his forehead.

“We’re not leaving those civilians stranded,” Jim said, speaking with real authority for the first time in this exercise. “Divert thruster power to—”

“They’re firing again!”

This time, the bridge crew braced themselves—and they did it again when they saw the familiar flare of the Klingon’s photon torpedoes. “Shields at fifteen percent, Captain!”

“Direct all power to the forward shields.”

The ship groaned loudly as they suffered another hit. “Forward shield power down to eight percent…” Leonard didn’t even know who was talking anymore, it was had to tell any of these cadets apart with the alarms and displays and bells and whistles and god knew what else shrieking in his ears. “Shields are down to three percent!”

Leonard glanced over at the would be captain, wondering why he wasn’t issuing any orders. And then he blinked.

Jim was leaning forward in his chair, his eyebrows knit together, and he was staring at the front display like he wanted to bore a hole through it with the power of his thoughts. “Initiate…” He started again. “Initiate evasion maneuver number—”

Leonard has to give credit to the programmer of this simulation, whoever it was, because even if some of the affects on the bridge itself leave a whole lot to the imagination, the scene playing out in the imaginary space outside of the ship was exquisite. Every single cadet in the room seemed to hold their breath as two of the Klingon ships swooped forward in unison, pulling up just above the civilian ship before they both let loose with volleys of photon fire.

“Direct hit! And another—”

Leonard shielded his eyes against the bright flare.

“That can’t be good,” someone muttered.

“Science Officer McCoy,” Jim said, quietly. “Scan the Kobayashi Maru.”

Leonard snorted. “You’re kidding.”

“Bones!”

Leonard glanced down at his computer, he pressed a few buttons and then he smacked the damn thing. “Working on it,” he said, trying again. “Just—there.” By some miracle the words KOBAYASHI M. had come up. “The hull integrity is intact, but…” The display shifted again, and Leonard wondered if someone upstairs wasn’t lending him a hand. Maybe one of the instructors. “… their life support system has been knocked completely offline, along with all the power they have left. If anyone survived the explosion they have minutes on the outside.”

“Damnit!” Jim swore, loudly, and there was an awkward pause across the bridge, punctuated by the whoops of the red alert.

“Sir, the Klingons are turning their attention to us.”

“Initiate standard evasion maneuvers!”

“Engineering is reporting we don’t have enough power to perform beyond the—”

“Then fire on the ships!”

“Our weapons were damaged in the Klingon’s second assault. And they’re moving in.”

Jim’s face was white. Leonard would’ve had to have seen it to believe it, but his friend had gone pale as a sheet, even if he was trying to hide it—he was still drumming on the armrests, and he said, “There has to be something we can do, they wouldn’t give us a test we couldn’t beat!”

“Jim,” Leonard said. “You don’t surrender to Klingons. It’s over. You lost.”

Not yet,” Jim snapped, and every conversation across the bridge—because the cadets were starting to chat, they’d already assumed they were finished here. Now everyone was fixing Jim with the most curious looks. “Uhura, hail the Kobayashi Maru.”

“Um, Captain…”

“Just do it!”

“They’re dead, Jim! They’re all dead!” Leonard’s computer was telling him something, loudly, but hell if he was going to pay that any attention when he was standing not five feet away from what was shaping up to be a train wreck—the real, human kind. “Didn’t you hear me say that?”

“The Klingons are arming their weapons again!”

“What is the point of this?” Jim directed his question pointedly at the one-way glass. “Tell me, what’s the point?

The bridge went dark.

—Cadet Kirk,” Captain Meyers said over the intercom. “You and your crew are dead. Your ship is destroyed. There are no survivors. This test is over.

Jim slumped almost imperceptibly. Leonard was probably the only one who was looking.

—Most of you did very well,” the Captain continued. The other cadets were filing out of the room already, with the exception of Jim, who hadn’t moved. “—Though we need to debrief Cadet Kirk on his performance as acting captain, the rest of the cadets are free to leave.

Leonard took the hint, stepping away from his computer and heading for the door. But Jim looked so … sad sitting there, and maybe even a bit shaken up. It was bizarre, to say the least, and so he couldn’t help lingering a bit beside the captain’s chair. “Jim,” he tried.

Jim grunted in response.

Leonard decided to go for the blunt route, because that’s what always penetrated. “That wasn’t like you,” he said. “You froze up.”

Jim didn’t answer.

“Why?” That didn’t illicit a response either, Leonard noted with irritation. “Damnit, Jim, are you alright or aren’t you?”

That snapped him out of … whatever it was. Jim looked up at him. “I thought … For a second I thought I felt it. A little bit. It wasn’t real but that must’ve been what it felt like.”

Leonard still had no idea what he was talking about. “Must’ve been what what felt like?” He regretted that almost immediately, because of course the second the words left his mouth he remembered—and then he felt a sudden rush of anger, because who the hell thought it was a good idea to let Jim Kirk pretend to captain a doomed spaceship and not give him a word of warning?

Jim stood up. “Don’t worry,” he said, which was a pointless thing to throw in, when he was acting like he was. “I’m going to beat this stupid test.”

Leonard hesitated. “I believe you, Jim,” he said, even though he didn’t.

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Date: 2009-05-10 07:26 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] liviapenn.livejournal.com

Oh, I liked this a lot, especially Jim *not* taking it seriously at first. It totally adds a layer of awesome to his totally *deliberate* not-taking-it-seriously in the film. :D

Date: 2009-05-10 07:32 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] rocknload.livejournal.com
Thanks! :D Yeah, his attitude in the film seemed to me to be a bit over the top and maybe even slightly forced, even for him.

Date: 2009-05-10 08:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] zephyrprince.livejournal.com
yay. i love the focus on mccoy. haven't heard him called leonard much yet. ill have to get used to that i guess.

Date: 2009-05-10 08:06 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] rocknload.livejournal.com
That's actually still bugging me, I've gone back and changed it to McCoy and gone back again and changed it back to Leonard. In the end I figured that he probably wouldn't think think of himself as his last name and it's written from his point of view, but I can't quite get used to it, after I've been calling him McCoy for years and years.

Heh, sorry for rambling. Thanks for your comment!

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Date: 2009-05-10 01:33 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] saavikam77.livejournal.com
Oh, ouch! O_O Poor Kirk... I hadn't really thought much about how his experience with the Kobayashi Maru might have been affected by his father's death yet, but it just makes so much sense!

Date: 2009-05-10 11:13 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] rocknload.livejournal.com
Thank you so much!

Date: 2009-05-10 02:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] notexotic.livejournal.com
This was a great piece of gen but then you just delivered one hell of a sucker punch with the bit about Kirk wanting to understand his father's death. Loved it. :D

Date: 2009-05-10 11:14 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] rocknload.livejournal.com
Thank you!

Date: 2009-05-10 02:59 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] the-dala.livejournal.com
This fits perfectly with movie canon. Loved Kirk's realization that it wasn't just a game, and McCoy's concern for him.

Date: 2009-05-11 12:33 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] rocknload.livejournal.com
McCoy being concerned is like my favorite thing. Thank you!

Date: 2009-05-10 05:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] the-summoning-d.livejournal.com
Oh, ouch. The beginning was funny, so very very much the Kirk we see in the film, and I didn't see the end coming. Oh Jim :( I can see McCoy giving whoever thought this was a good idea a piece of his mind. Also, I am totally choosing to interpret this as Kirk/McCoy. Just so you know :D

Date: 2009-05-11 12:35 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] rocknload.livejournal.com
Thanks! Young!Kirk sort of weirded me out at first, because while old!Kirk was always cocky he had this sort of professionalism about it that the new kid clearly likes. But now I love him for it. And heh, interpret away! The world needs more Kirk/McCoy.

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Date: 2009-05-10 06:17 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] dafnap.livejournal.com
"Tell me, what’s the point?”

I. Yeah. That sort of broke me. All of this and Jim trying pretty much anything to not let it hit close to home they're already dead, and then McCoy's realization, and gah. GAH. Excellent, excellent voices and pitch-perfect timing on twisting that knife. Thanks for this!

Date: 2009-05-11 01:01 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] rocknload.livejournal.com
Yeah, I just wanna hug Jim most of the time, the thing I like most about him is that he's as cocky as his predecessor but he still gets that reaction. Thanks for you comment!

Date: 2009-05-10 06:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] yakbites.livejournal.com
I like how quick the change was in Kirk not caring, not taking it seriously, to standing, shouting, giving it all he's got and generally being over-invested in saving these imaginary people's lives.
Very very cool.

Date: 2009-05-11 01:24 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] rocknload.livejournal.com
Heh, thanks so much!

Date: 2009-05-10 07:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] talk-back.livejournal.com
Lovelovelove this. The tone is exactly right.

Date: 2009-05-11 01:25 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] rocknload.livejournal.com
Thank you!

Date: 2009-05-10 08:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] evil-alter-ego.livejournal.com
Here linked from...somewhere...and I just wanted to say that I thought this was absolutely great. I'm definitely hoping for more Bones in the next movie, but until then I'll be happy with seeing him in fanfic like this!

Date: 2009-05-11 01:26 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] rocknload.livejournal.com
Thank you! Yes, more Bones would be great, he might be my new favorite.

Date: 2009-05-10 10:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] roga.livejournal.com
Oh, awesome. I love the way you've shown Kirk here, and especially Bones' last line about how he should have been given warning.

Date: 2009-05-11 02:06 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] rocknload.livejournal.com
Thank you~!

Date: 2009-05-11 12:17 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ancalemon.livejournal.com
D:
Note to self: stop reading fic at work because sometimes it makes you want to cry.

In other words, well done!

Date: 2009-05-11 02:08 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] rocknload.livejournal.com
D: I'm sorry I made you want to cry.

Date: 2009-05-11 02:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] corrielle.livejournal.com
I've been a Trek fan for a long time, in various incarnations, but the new movie was the first time I've felt the urge to seek out fanfic. Then I found this, and I was glad I did.

Seeing the slow transition from flippancy to seriousness from McCoy's perspective was really nice, and I like the way that having him as a POV character sheds light on his friendship with Kirk (which was one of my favorite things about the new movie...)

Date: 2009-05-11 07:53 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] rocknload.livejournal.com
I'm about the same way! Despite the foray into fic when I was fifteen, I never felt a huge urge to get into fandom. Now, though, I'm totally looking forward to finding a ton of it.

Thank you!

Date: 2009-05-11 02:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] anevivi.livejournal.com
Enjoyed this a lot. Interesting missing scene--and plausible too!

Especially loved Bones awkwardly asking a question he realizes he already knows the answer to and the fall out from that. ♥

Date: 2009-05-12 03:05 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] rocknload.livejournal.com
Thank you~!

Date: 2009-05-11 03:46 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] puckling.livejournal.com
This was fantastic, thank you so much. I loved the way you show that Kirk is so damn FOCUSED on getting the ship saved, and how much failing absolutely kills him.

Date: 2009-05-12 03:08 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] rocknload.livejournal.com
Well, when Kirk focuses on something, you know he's going to get it at some point! Thanks for your comment!

Date: 2009-05-11 08:17 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] al-hazel.livejournal.com
This is gorgeous, using the Kobayashi Maru to give Jim a way to connect to his father. I love how Jim is all uncaring about the test, and how it eventually builds in him a resolve to beat the test.

Perfect prelude to the movie's Kobayashi Maru test.

Date: 2009-05-12 03:09 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] rocknload.livejournal.com
Thanks! Yeah, I think the changes to Kirk's backstory give the Kobayashi Maru a whole different implication for him.

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Date: 2009-05-11 12:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] penknife.livejournal.com
Oh. Jim. This is great.

Date: 2009-05-12 03:09 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] rocknload.livejournal.com
Thank you!

Date: 2009-05-11 08:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] archerstar.livejournal.com
Oh, this was heartbreaking and absolutely wonderful. I love it.

Date: 2009-05-12 03:09 pm (UTC)

Date: 2009-05-11 09:27 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tmelange.livejournal.com
Excellent! Bravo!

Date: 2009-05-12 03:10 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] rocknload.livejournal.com
Thank you~!

Date: 2009-05-12 10:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wickedground.livejournal.com
oh I liked this. Nice interaction between Kirk and Bones.

Date: 2009-05-12 03:11 pm (UTC)

Date: 2009-05-12 12:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ayalesca.livejournal.com
Oh, this is wonderful. :)

Recced over at [livejournal.com profile] kirkmccoy! (come play?)

Date: 2009-05-13 08:35 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cloudyjenn.livejournal.com
Yes, very much love. Especially the part where McCoy realizes what he's said at the end. Sure, the starfleet people have to test him, but I love that it pisses McCoy off anyway. Great fic!

Jenn

Date: 2009-05-16 04:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] flyingcarpet.livejournal.com
Oooh, I like this. McCoy's perspective was the perfect way to tell this story, I think. Nice job.

Date: 2009-05-16 11:47 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] melloniel.livejournal.com
Oh man, I loved this - especially the end, and fjksa;fd poor Jim. D:

Date: 2009-05-16 12:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nolivingman.livejournal.com
Oh, I really like this. Kirk is perfectly brash at the beginning, and then breaks your heart, as he will do. Wonderful fic.
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